If you fear something enough, you can make it happen – Sylvia Plath, the movie
…like kejatohan cicak di rumah orang saking parnonya liat banyak cicak berkeliaran
Céline: Did you ever keep a journal when you were a kid?
Jesse: Um, yeah…On and off, I guess.
Céline: It’s funny, I read a…one of mine from ’83, the other day.
Céline: And, what really surprised me, is that I was feeling with life, the same way am now. I was much more hopeful and naive, but the core, and the way I was feeling things, is exactly the same. It made me realize I haven’t changed much at all.
Jesse: Yeah, I don’t think anybody does; people don’t want to admit it, but it’s like we just…we have these innate set points.
Jesse: You know, it’s like…nothing much that happens to us changes our disposition.
Exactly what I think right now and it kinda sucks
Holly : You know those days when you get the mean reds?
Paul : The mean reds, you mean like the blues?
Holly : No. The blues are because you’re getting fat and maybe it’s been raining too long, you’re just sad that’s all. The mean reds are horrible. Suddenly you’re afraid and you don’t know what you’re afraid of.
-Breakfast at Tiffany’s
While Holly chooses to jump in a cab and visit Tiffany’s to calm her down again; on my unproductive days, after attempting to balance the brain chemicals by consuming some vitamin B and exercising a tiiny bit, reblogging people’s creations
whilst eating my delicious words surprisingly helps!
pictures found HERE (except for the first one)
PS: Apparently I’m losing ability to express feelings and thoughts into fluent words. I suppose I have “evolved” or something
Andy: I had Mr. Mozart to keep me company…[points and taps his head.] It was in here. [gestures over his heart] And in here. That’s the beauty of music. They can’t get that from you. Haven’t you ever felt that way about music?
Red: Well… I played a mean harmonica as a younger man. Lost interest in it, though. Didn’t make too much sense in here.
Andy: No, here’s where it makes the most sense. You need it so you don’t forget.
Andy: That there are places in the world that aren’t made out of stone. That there’s… there’s somethin’ inside that they can’t get to; that they can’t touch. It’s yours.
Create your music, listen to it, believe in it. The temptation to judge and offend is most likely because we’re unsatisfied and not enjoying our own song, and this helps in understanding why some people act certain ways.
And I guess when we truly know who we are and what we want, whatever society say or do will never matter anymore.
You know something is wrong for you when you keep on wanting some aspects to change knowing that they will not and you cannot imagine coping with it while picturing your life in the next 10 years.
It could be a cult, a belief, a value, a culture, a certain society/person’s way of thinking and acting, and you could always escape, find the nearest turn, and take a new direction. Or you can just continue pretending that you have adapted, secretly knowing that your soul and dreams have died deep inside. Probably several times.
But maybe the wise were right. Those wrong turns and decisions can’t be considered wrong for they may lead everything to where they’re meant to be. Idealism and sentiments can be enough impediment clouding our judgments while our inner feelings always knew what we wanted to become as a person (or what we expect/deserve from other people, for that matter).
Then there are experiences we misread as “fate”. Things that seem to be “falling into places” by itself, things we “cannot help”. Maybe it’s comfortable, only because we didn’t do much to get into that place. Maybe it’s in our genes, our upbringing. Maybe it’s our blood type, maybe it was written in the stars, or printed on our palms. Whatever it is, we believe it’s meant to be, only because it was easy. They happened to us. We didn’t make any of those happen.
And while revising several “life principles”, I find myself contradicting previous theories…
Apples may not fall far from the tree. But we’re not apples. And maybe we can change after all.
*pictures taken from “Love Kittens” by Milly Brown. Lovely book filled with adorable kittens… but not half as lovely and adorable as the person who gave it to me! ^^
“…I’d like to repeat the advice that I gave you before, in that I think you really should make a radical change in your lifestyle and begin to boldly do things which you may previously never have thought of doing, or been too hesitant to attempt. So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservatism, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more damaging to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man’s living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun.
If you want to get more out of life, Ron, you must lose your inclination for monotonous security and adopt a helter-skelter style of life that will at first appear to you to be crazy. But once you become accustomed to such a life you will see its full meaning and its incredible beauty. And so, Ron, in short, get out of Salton City and hit the Road. I guarantee you will be very glad you did. But I fear that you will ignore my advice. You think that I am stubborn, but you are even more stubborn than me. You had a wonderful chance on your drive back to see one of the greatest sights on earth, the Grand Canyon, something every American should see at least once in his life. But for some reason incomprehensible to me you wanted nothing but to bolt for home as quickly as possible, right back to the same situation which you see day after day after day. I fear you will follow this same inclination in the future and thus fail to discover all the wonderful things that God has placed around us to discover.
Don’t settle down and sit in one place. Move around, be nomadic, make each day a new horizon. You are still going to live a long time, Ron, and it would be a shame if you did not take the opportunity to revolutionize your life and move into an entirely new realm of experience.
You are wrong if you think Joy emanates only or principally from human relationships. God has placed it all around us. It is in everything and anything we might experience. We just have to have the courage to turn against our habitual lifestyle and engage in unconventional living.
My point is that you do not need me or anyone else around to bring this new kind of light in your life. It is simply waiting out there for you to grasp it, and all you have to do is reach for it. The only person you are fighting is yourself and your stubbornness to engage in new circumstances.’
As much as that made perfect sense to me, I’ve been wondering, is there really a time limit where one must finally settle and conform and actually feel content for doing so? Or is there even a start sign where one must leave their comfort zone and jump off the track they’ve been planning their whole life? Is it for everyone? Or should some just stay where they are, accept and be grateful for their destiny of stability and security. And if the price of nonconformity includes disappointments from those who genuinely give a damn, those to whom we practically owe, should we just stop being so ignorant and start living our lives according to others’ expectations. (Not a question, I seek no answer).
“The reward for conformity is that everyone likes you but yourself. So go for it!”
-Rita Mae Brown, modified under stress =p
We’re not equal, we are special =)
Today is the International Women’s Day, so I’d like to give tribute to the iconic women who have made impact on the world. Herewith is the list of some women in history who are my true role models and inspiration. These icons have brought revolution in their own way with their own kick ass style.
“A girl should be two things: classy and fabulous.”
A fashion revolutionist, a true manizer, workaholic, successful entrepreneur… what more could you ask for? This stubborn lady “taught” women how to dress casually and freely, while still looking chic and elegant. What lunatic says women must suffocate under those tight corsages?
“The woman who can create her own job is the woman who will win fame and fortune.”
The first aviatrix to fly a plane across the Atlantic. She was once a nurse, photographer, truck driver, stenographer, clothing line owner, Cosmo editor, she’s done it all! Earhart referred to her marriage as a “partnership” with “dual control” and refused to change her last name to her husband’s, Putnam. She may be non-committal to a man, but never to her dreams (a must learn lesson! -_-).
3. Marilyn Monroe (June 1, 1926 – August 5, 1962)
“Women who seek to be equal with men lack ambition.”
A legendary actress who is “very shy and very sweet and far more intelligent than people gave her credit for”.
Her sex appeal and beauty is what gotten her into massive fame, and she clearly knows how to use it. Being a “feminist in disguise”, her figure is adored by both male and female, until today. Women are inspired by the fact that a sex symbol can be so vulnerable and complex inside, while men drool over her.. well, intelligence 😆
4. Sylvia Plath (October 27, 1932 – February 11, 1963)
A living doll, everywhere you look.
It can sew, it can cook.
It can talk, talk, talk.
It works, there is nothing wrong with it.
You have a hole, it’s a poultice.
You have an eye, it’s an image.
My boy, it’s your last resort.
Will you marry it, marry it, marry it.
“The Applicant” (1966)
The power of her poetries always gives me goosebumps. A talented writer/author with such dramatic and intriguing life. I find myself wanting to murder her husband everytime I am reminded of what he’s done to her. Of course I’m just kidding… (no I’m not).
“I want to be a guy, but I want to wear a lot of makeup.”
The role model for today’s generation. She’s a singer, a songwriter, she owns a clothing line, married to a rockstar, a mother, and always a trend setter. No matter how weird her latest styles look like, I’d always find her interesting and fascinating. Everything seems right if she‘s doing it =)