a shoe tale

It’s been over a year, since I saw you sitting there alone. I approached to see if we clicked. We seem to fit well together. I was tempted, though I knew I didn’t need you that much. Not with the amount of price that must be paid. Is it worth it? Should I just take this chance?

I hesitated, I contemplated. I walked away, headed to the opposite direction.
Plenty others distracted me, for a moment I had forgotten about you completely.

But soon the image of you came back to haunt my mind. I think we can get along just fine. And maybe the benefit would outweigh the cost. Maybe I should just say yes without listening to all these doubts.

“You really should think clearly and not act on your impulses”, a voice inside my head reminded.
“There is nothing to lose, short-term happiness is still happiness,” my heart argued.

The head won, as it usually does, initially. I left you, convincing myself that this is how things should end between us.

“Get over it, it’s not a big deal.” I said to myself.

But I couldn’t sleep that night. There a tiny feeling of regret crawling up my chest. A tad bit of guilt for ignoring that happenstance. A moment where destiny decides that we should meet.

The next day I knew what I should do. Half-running, I rushed to get to you again. Apologizing for abandoning you the other day, for not listening to my heart and worried too much about what was right.

But as I got back to your place, you were nowhere to be found. I asked and questioned everyone, and they said you were picked up by someone. I was left there with a big hole in my heart and a massive remorse. I looked around, none were even comparable to you.

You may be not that perfect, but I knew there was something about us that could have worked. So what if we failed eventually? The biggest mistake was us not bother trying; and me not brave enough to take any risk. I ran away from my heart’s desire. And so you’re gone and found another lover.

It’s been 374 days. We could have spent those days together. But I do hope for your happiness, and maybe one day fate will lead me to something as special as what I had with you.

I think you looked like this, I really can’t remember.

Big Hair Day

Today was such a good hair day for me where I went walking around rocking a bedhead :p I never understood why some girls would want to iron their hair straight and flat while they have natural bouncy curls to flaunt. Big, wavy hair is currently the hot stuff for 2011 (although despite the world wide trend, I always think that big and bouncy hair are sexier!)

Now a little bit of secret on how to naturally volumize your hair for those who have straight hair, is simply by applying the gel of Aloe vera plant! Not only will it stimulate better and shinier hair growth, it will soothe the scalp and also give that natural bounce everyone will envy 😉 Apply and massage on dry hair and scalp and wait for about 30 minutes before rinsing throughly with shampoo. Use it 1-2 times a week to maintain the “volumizing” effect on your hair. Have fun whipping your big sexy bedhead!

Blah Blah

What do you expect?

Comfort. Someone you feel safe with, someone who feels safe with you.

Trust. Someone whose words and actions you can trust, someone who trusts yours.

Future. Someone who shares the same life missions, someone with values, values aligned with yours.

Affection, care. Someone who loves you very much and cares enough to always let you know.

Admiration. Someone whom you admire, who also admires you and sees your best.

Someone who listens, someone who wants to see you happy, and keep you feeling that way, whatever it takes.

Someone who believes in your strengths and accepts your weaknesses. And vice versa.

Someone who somehow relies on you for something, because you “complete” them. Someone with a flaw that you can cover, as well as they can help you cover yours.

Someone who needs you and wants to make sure that you’re doing okay.

Someone who is loved by people around them, someone who has a best friend(s) who also love you.


The truth is everybody deserves this, and should not settle for less! *wink

Also, Happy Valentine’s Day (for those who care :p)

mean reds

Holly : You know those days when you get the mean reds?
Paul : The mean reds, you mean like the blues?
Holly : No. The blues are because you’re getting fat and maybe it’s been raining too long, you’re just sad that’s all. The mean reds are horrible. Suddenly you’re afraid and you don’t know what you’re afraid of.

-Breakfast at Tiffany’s

While Holly chooses to jump in a cab and visit Tiffany’s to calm her down again; on my unproductive days, after attempting to balance the brain chemicals by consuming some vitamin B and exercising a tiiny bit, reblogging people’s creations whilst eating my delicious words surprisingly helps!

aww poor bunny

(red lipstick that is)

pictures found HERE (except for the first one)

PS: Apparently I’m losing ability to express feelings and thoughts into fluent words. I suppose I have “evolved” or something :/

Happy International Women’s Day

We’re not equal, we are special =)

Please don't complain unless you have a uterus that carries such a big job and responsibility ;D


Today is the International Women’s Day, so I’d like to give tribute to the iconic women who have made impact on the world. Herewith is the list of some women in history who are my true role models and inspiration. These icons have brought revolution in their own way with their own kick ass style.

1. Coco” Chanel (19 August 1883 – 10 January 1971)

“A girl should be two things: classy and fabulous.”

A fashion revolutionist, a true manizer, workaholic, successful entrepreneur… what more could you ask for? This stubborn lady “taught” women how to dress casually and freely, while still looking chic and elegant. What lunatic says women must suffocate under those tight corsages?





2. Amelia Mary Earhart (July 24, 1897; missing July 2, 1937)

“The woman who can create her own job is the woman who will win fame and fortune.”

The first aviatrix to fly a plane across the Atlantic. She was once a nurse, photographer, truck driver, stenographer, clothing line owner, Cosmo editor,  she’s done it all! Earhart referred to her marriage as a “partnership” with “dual control” and refused to change her last name to her husband’s, Putnam. She may be non-committal to a man, but never to her dreams (a must learn lesson! -_-).

3. Marilyn Monroe (June 1, 1926 – August 5, 1962)

“Women who seek to be equal with men lack ambition.”

A legendary actress who is “very shy and very sweet and far more intelligent than people gave her credit for”.

Her sex appeal and beauty is what gotten her into massive fame, and she clearly knows how to use it. Being a “feminist in disguise”, her figure is adored by both male and female, until today. Women are inspired by the fact that a sex symbol can be so vulnerable and complex inside, while men drool over her.. well, intelligence 😆

4. Sylvia Plath (October 27, 1932 – February 11, 1963)

A living doll, everywhere you look.
It can sew, it can cook.
It can talk, talk, talk.
It works, there is nothing wrong with it.
You have a hole, it’s a poultice.
You have an eye, it’s an image.
My boy, it’s your last resort.
Will you marry it, marry it, marry it.

“The Applicant” (1966)

The power of her poetries always gives me goosebumps. A talented writer/author with such dramatic and intriguing life. I find myself wanting to murder her husband everytime I am reminded of what he’s done to her. Of course I’m just kidding… (no I’m not).

5. Gwen Stefani (born October 3, 1969)

“I want to be a guy, but I want to wear a lot of makeup.”

The role model for today’s generation. She’s a singer, a songwriter, she owns a clothing line, married to a rockstar, a mother, and always a trend setter. No matter how weird her latest styles look like, I’d always find her interesting and fascinating. Everything seems right if she‘s doing it  =)


Goodbye, Alexander McQueen

“Inspired by Charles Darwin’s theory of evolution, it was divided into two parts: the first was based on nature.. The second part took its reference from the industrial revolution and the harm that man has done to the world since. McQueen wanted to demonstrate how fragile the planet is, and his use of the stuffed animals was to underscore the fact that perhaps these may be the only animals left for our grandchildren to see.”


Only since 2006 have I learned about Alexander McQueen and his twistedly beautiful creations. I found out that he was the favorite designer of myfavorite ANTM model at that (naive) moment, and when I first saw his designs, I knew instantly that they were artworks made with heart. His works are where fashion and arts collide; surprising and dramatic, often stating historical, political, or environmental issues.

A dearfriend of mine once said, “We tend to idolize people with qualities we may still lack. The fact that they possess something we desire is the reason why we are drawn to them”.

Which I find so true in this case. I always go gaga everytime seeing his works, be it the ready to wear or haute couture collections. Although his designs may be too bizarre for some people, I say weird is good. If only I was a talented genius with such insane creativity like him…

“But everybody has their own demons, no matter how talented, famous, or successful they are. And those who can fight them are lucky.”-source

The world has lost one talented artist/designers, and he is the one that actually lit a fire inside my soul. To see him or at least attend his show was a promise I made to myself. But now that he’s gone, I am truly out of words 😥

Goodbye McQueen, thanks for being such an inspiration to us.

An Asymmetrical Trauma

Nowadays, it’s all these giant sunglasses… and tattoos. It’s handbags with little dogs in them. I mean, who okayed this?

(500) Days of Summer


Well Tom, to me, giant sunglasses, tattoos, and handbags with rich little dogs in them are still bearable to accept. But there is one fashion trend that I thought would never come back.. at least not this soon, not before the whole generation become fully mature enough to cope with the trauma it again.

After being a big hit in the early 2000’s, they’re back in less than 10 years.
The thing with one shoulders as a daily wear is, once you wear them, people will remember forever. It’s unlikely to mix and match them into various looks, therefore it is one of the least everlasting fashions. Even if style stays as fashion goes, once the trend is over, the history of your asymmetrical dress(es) begins. Therefore I guess it is best to keep this style for cocktail to formal occasions only.  

PS: For a daily wear that makes sense, check out Zooey’s style in the movie.. now that’s something everybody would agree to “okay”. *wink

What I don’t envy

I envy the butterflies, flitting guiltlessly, from one pretty flower to another.

I envy the raindrops, falling freely, without the slightest fear of the powerful gravity.

I envy the happy old lady, selling crops and seeds with a smile, certain that God won’t leave her even just for a while.

I envy the children running along, laughing as loud as they might, telling stories with nothing to imply.

I envy the moonlight, the sunlight, how generous they are to share rays of life, without any grudge holding them from giving their all.

And I envy the hearts, who still trust even though they’ve been crushed.
The forgiving smiles even though betrayals have damaged them much.
The hopes in their eyes, as if nothing can shatter their beliefs, as if nothing is ever worth their over grief.

I don’t envy kisses and cuddles, only portrayed to hide the emptiness inside.
Or owning acquaintances who exist and persist in the hopes that people realize and want to be part of the disguise.
I don’t envy companions, prides, degrees, statuses, accomplishments that are nothing but shiny, polished misery.
Exhibited only to conceal what soul really lies underneath.

For this year, for this new year… I wish to achieve the essence of what I envy still, and be avoided from things that I never will.

So here we are taking our bow, hopefully with knowledge in our head and wisdom in our eye,
Welcoming the beginning of you, and gladly waving 2009 goodbye.


Inspired by Stella

“People can steal your ideas.

But they can never steal your style.”

I guess I was eating my own words when being stuck in this super uninspired mental condition the other day.

Carrie Bradshaw’s styles I found were kinda too out of this world for this occasion, and just when I was about to give up…

along came Stella.

Oh wow.

It was for the purpose of our homework, I didn’t steal her ideas then actually SELL them =)

So thank you Stella for the inspiration!

PS: Her designs are animal and eco friendly and she is strictly against animal cruelty in the fashion industry. Now that‘s an idea worth “stealing”, no?