You just gotta let it go

I need some sleep.
I can’t go on like this.
I try counting sheep,
But there’s one I always miss.

Everyone says I’m getting down too low
Everyone says: “You just gotta let it go”
“You just gotta let it go”
I just gotta let it go

I need some sleep
time to put the old horse down
I’m in too deep
and the wheels keep spinning round

Everyone says I’m getting down too low
Everyone says: “You just gotta let it go”
“You just gotta let it go”
I just gotta let it go

You just gotta let it go
You just gotta let it go
You just gotta let it go

Eels - I Need Some Sleep

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This song really describes my condition at the moment. Not the “i need some sleep” part, cos obviously I’ve been getting excessive sleeping lately. It’s the “letting go” part. I need to start letting go, and try to accept the truth that is happening.

But sometimes I wonder, how do we know that it is time to let go? How do we know when to keep on hoping and believing, putting all our heart into something, believing that somehow the Universe will attract it to us, and we will get what we’ve been wanting after all?

How could we be certain that it’s time to quit believing, stop hoping, and give up our faith when all that we are certain of is.. uncertainty?

..and nobody lived happily ever after

I have been witnessing some of the most unbelievable things lately.

People hurting their loved ones, deciding not to be faithful to them anymore.

People not grateful with what they’ve got already, trying to create unnecessary dramas in their lives..

Which makes me wonder, do we really want happily ever afters?

Do we really expect life to go smoothly always, without any fights, tears, pains?
Are sweet lovings and happy endings really all we need?
Aren’t those pains and bleedings what make us human?
Reminding ourselves that we still have emotions, feelings and senses?

And the next time you hope and pray to have a perfect, happy, and peaceful life, ask yourself if that’s really what you want.
Cos in the end, you’ll most likely take them for granted and can’t stop asking for less.

“Man needs difficulties; they are necessary for health.”
-Carl Jung

Sunset at Dreamland, Bali

Before departing to Bali, I have already developed this obsession toward Dreamland Beach. The beach is located on the Bukit Peninsula. Ride toward Uluwatu and you’ll get to Garuda Wisnu Kencana statue, which is located near Universitas Udayana. You will need to take rented car to get to Dreamland (or have someone take you there) and can’t depend on public transportations since the location is seriously far far away. Ensure that the vehicle is in good condition as well cos the route is not going to be pretty and smooth.

My disability to recognize routes and directions has forced me to put these links in order to help you understand how to get to Dreamland.

..same bay like bingin and impossibles.Drive the Uluwatu street (Jalan Uluwatu), direction Uluwatu and 3 Km before Uluwatu Beach you’ll have a big entrance, with no guards, on your right, to what was suposed to be a big private condominium made by the sun of former Indonesian President Suharto (he was arrested).You enter there and drive in direction of the sea, in the middle of the road you’ll have to pay some guys to let you in (not much) and then just follow the road signs..

..Riding along Jl. Uluwatu on the Bukit, one passes a grand looking entrance complete with statute. A long 4 lane road takes you down towards the coast, passing construction that seems to be frozen in time..

The beach is where some Indonesian “reality shows” take place (i.e. Joe Millionaire) and is also the location of a certain Indonesian actress’s infamous pictures (i refuse to make any comments on this).

Our plan to stay there from daylight to sunset failed miserably. Arriving already at 6pm, we wouldn’t waste any of our time and immediately took off to feel the soothing white sand and the relaxing waves on our feet (none of us are surfers so just witnessing the amazing view was enough for us).

picture taken by Rio Pranoto

My disappointment for not being able to enjoy Dreamland for hours was paid when we finally get to take amazing shots and created some sand angels

Picture taken by Rio Pranoto

Anyway, here’s some tips for those who plan to go there:

1. Depart from Kuta around 11-12 if you plan to enjoy the sunshine and take pictures of the amazing blue sky (the journey takes about an hour from Kuta)

2. Prepare your vehicle, check the condition and assure it’s in a good condition. The road to the beach is all rocky and crazy. The roads before getting to the rocky road are long and tend to fluctuate (which means containing lots of ups and downs). Don’t let your vehicle overload unless you plan to slip your car all the way backwards and get stranded in the middle of nowhere.

3. After parking your car, walk to the northern side of the beach, cos the pathway is less steep and easier to go through.

4. Leave your high heels at home, at the car, or just throw them away on your way to the beach. There is no possible way you’ll be needing them anyway.

5. Spare a large space of memory on your camera, you don’t wanna miss the tiniest thing that happened in Paradise!

6. Bring extra clothes for change. Duh. (After sunset, clothes changing can be done behind the huge rocks around the beaches, it just doesn’t get any better than that hey :D)

7. If you’re too late and can only catch the sunset, then go for it! The view around 6.30 pm is the best. The clouds are just unbelievably beautiful.

8. Don’t even bother continuing your journey if the sun is all out. There won’t be anything left at the beach but Balinese dogs barking at you to leave immediately.

9. Don’t forget to take pictures on the rocks. That’s one of the most attractive parts of Dreamland.

10. Enjoy!

Omissions Are Betrayal

Omissions are betrayal

That is one of my favorite movie quotes, taken from the movie “Little Black Book“.

When we keep informations from others, from those who are close to us, does it really mean we’re hurting them?

We may not be having any bad intentions anyway when we decide to do so. We may be just having some other plans. Things that some people won’t really bother knowing anyway.

But then again, when we really care about someone and consider them important, why wouldn’t we tell them everything? Why would we hide any truth from them?

The truth may not what they want to hear. But keeping it from them may cause nothing but the worst to the relationship.

And I have never felt more betrayed than this. By someone I thought would never hurt me this way.