I try to reach the sky
Along with the choices passing me by
By not deciding only one
Does it mean we’ll be achieving but none?
Is it commitment when we commit to many?
Or is it wrong and simply greedy?
Confusion within contemplation
Too tired even just to reason
You stand there right in between
Accomplishing what seems to be unseen
I try to reach the sky
The choices keep passing me by
Hold on tight to all these branches
Taking the plenty, the golden chances
1. Empire of The Sun – Walking on a Dream
THE soundtrack of my life at this moment.. *wink*
“Walking on a dream, how can I explain.. Never looking down I’m just in awe of what’s in front of me.. Catch me Im falling down.”
2. Lily Allen – Fuck You
She’s criticizing George Bush in this adorable song.. The video is just too cute!
“Fuck you very, very much. Cause we hate what you do and we hate your whole crew so please don’t stay in touch.”
3. MGMT – Kids
“Old stuff” from earlier this year. Still gets me going though 
“Decisions to decisions are made and not fought, but I thought, this wouldn’t hurt a lot. I guess not.”
4. Gym Class Heroes – Cookie Jar
Years passed by, but this song never bores me. How I find the lyrics relatable is quite creepy :p
“Want you to be the one and my only, I want to be faithful but I can’t keep my hands out the cookie jar.”
5. TLC – I’m Good at Being Bad
TEN years and still one of the most awesome, original and strong RnB song. I miss them =(
“A good man is so hard to find… Well, actually, a hard man is so good to find.. YEA BABY!” 
It’s been forever since the last time I wrote a real daily life posting here. Lately whenever I feel the urge to trash (it’s “nyampah” in Bahasa, can’t find the suitable word in English) I start trashing here, in my beloved blog. I’ve got facebook, twitter, and all those online “nyampah” facilities, but I still find this blog the most convenient place to spare my endless trashy thoughts. So pardon me, readers, if lately the postings tend to be so short and err.. spontaneous?
I have been drained with my life schedule, and it’s not like I didn’t predict this before. I was really enjoying it until the human side of me started to scream for mercy. I need some rest! Today’s presentation really drained the energy inside of me. I can’t even pinpoint which aspect of it is the main reason I feel so tired and inadequate afterwards. It just felt downright insane.
Packed in a very small room (who on Earth suggested we present there anyway?!), with people almost twice my age (well, +10 years mostly), presenting while I am being stared at without any proper distance from the audience. I couldn’t breathe! And it was nothing like talking in front of a bunch of teenagers I used to do back then. First 3 minutes, I totally lost it. Then I did what I do best: I blabbed.
X: As you know, I don’t look back. *shrugs snobbishly*
Y: So that’s why you never learn your lesson… *nods understandingly*
When I was first told that the word “kuchi” means “mouth” in Japanese, I thought to myself, “What a nice coincidence!”
Wanting to use a simple, catchy, yet meaningless name for my blog, it turned out that it has some sense of “philosophy” after all (err.. explaining what a “big mouthed” blog this is?)..
But when I decided to actually search for the definition of the word “kuchi”, how shocked was I to find this:
And the most shocking part is, even the second definition still goes with the blog content -_-
So when you ask: “What’s in a name?”
The answer is… “PLENTY, Shakespeare dear.”
-> Clearly he’s not a biologist since in Biology we believe in “nama membawa makna” (“there’s always a meaning behind a name”).
Well I should have known…
PS: There is actually another definition, but it was too inappropriate even for this blog. Go see for yourself.
“Clinical trials in developing countries often don’t include ethicists.”
Us Indonesians are so smart and creative that we’re capable of manipulating such complicated rules and regulations that corruption still run smooth up until now. If we can use others, why not use them? After we’re done with our needs and interests, just get rid of them.
“Diperlukan manis yang berguna bagi orang lain hanya untuk diserap habis dan dibuang sepahnya.” (Immitating Dewi Lestari on Filosofi Kopi)
So you pursue studies to developed countries, learn morals and ethics of being a decent and useful scientist. Then you go home to your beloved country only to have all your standards and idealisms smashed into pieces of “What? Dear, nobody cares about that here.”
Moral of the whining: move far away and never come back, be ignorant because our poor president has gotten too much burden on his shoulder already to even think about how to fund proper scientific researches. Just give up on Indonesia now.
PS: I’m (micro)blogging during lectures now because it keeps me awake & entertained. Viva blackberry! 
Have you done anything useful for anyone today?
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The picture was taken during my trip to Banjarmasin a few months ago. It was at Pulau Kembang, at the delta of Barito River which is also known for its floating market. See unique pictures of it here and here. The activity of the floating market only occurs for 1-2 hours right after sunrise (until around 7). It was the funniest breakfast experience I ever had, where we try to “catch” our foods and drinks from the “floating cafe”, altogether with people from other boats around us.
Anyway, one of the monkeys grabbed my Nikon lens cap (with string!) and until now my camera lens is still unprotected… Oh well.. Monkeys.
X: “Because even if we know it’s not good for us and it’s going nowhere, more often than not we just keep on lingering.. until a backup, a better backup shows up.”
Y: “… Are we still talking about my job?”
It’s not them..
It’s me.
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Happy Idul Fitri!
Our professor told us in one of those devastating caffein-less lectures earlier this week (no morning coffee during Ramadhan for me!):
“The luckiest people are those with the most choices.”
So, instead of (just) investing money, why not start investing… CHOICES? =)
